Seriously, Jayne.

just to try to freeze my stomach from doing those painful rollar coaster movements.
I am heart sick, this is true.
This is the feeling that the dying get when they know that they have an extra 26 months and they are in excruitiating pain.
I do not want to keep getting poked with needles, I just want to die in peace.

Let this be my testiment
If I am ever hooked up to a machine to live, cast away my fear of death, and unplugg me.
That is no life that I want to live.